Slight Cosplay Hiatus. Until Further Notice.

I'm gonna try to make this as not whiny as possible.

Well, to put it simply, life is hard. It's hard for a lot of people I have no room to complain about anything. But the truth of the matter is, I have no money, actually, I have negative money. I owe myself money. And I keep thinking and I can't believe it's come to this. I'm going to finish Ryoko, and I'm going to finish Rikku. But I after I finish them, I really don't know when I'll make any new cosplays again. Sigh. It really makes me want to cry to admit that I've bitten off more than I can chew with this. Actually, scratch that, I did cry. I sobbed for several minutes straight after coming to this realization that nothing goes according to plan. What I mainly need to say is I'm not gonna do anything new for a long while. I need to get a job, pay myself back, pay my sister back as I also owe her money and then I can think about making new cosplays again. I've also decided to take some TNT to my cosplay "schedule". I've decided it to be simpler to just make cosplays as they come and not put a specific due date on them, I think it'll keep my hair from turning white and my face from breaking out much longer. So in saying that, if I don’t finished Rikku by San Japan, although that would be ideal for me, I won’t cry, I’ll suck it up, and wear something else. I’ll be able to finish her by Matsuri next year. I’m going to have to stop making promises to both myself and my watchers/subscribers/etc. because I have a way of breaking said promises, and it makes everyone sad. I've also been having a lot of inner drama, and it's been difficult for me to stop being hard on myself.


So, don’t expect seeing anything about my Yuni or Selphie cosplays anytime cause goodness knows when those will be happening. Especially Selphie because I’ve yet to actually play Final Fantasy 8. Yeah.

And to awkwardly wrap all of this up, I need to point this out, mainly to myself. Cosplay maybe the greatest thing in your(my) life, but you(I) need to always remember that life always comes first. You can put the construction of a costume on hold, but life ain't gonna stop or even slow down for you(me), and if you(I) look away for a second, it's gonna hit you(me) like a speeding train.


I hope no one's mad at my broken promises,
Love,
Sana